When I was a kid I was obsessed with this Italian magical girl show called Winx Club. Literally everything that had something remotely-related to those fairies wouldn't escape my eye-sight. Toys, magazines, DVDs, stickers, books, clothes. Everything. I had at least 6 DVD. All of them had first 3 seasons. The only thing that was diffirent about each of them was the cover art. Oh, but buying those DVDs was always like a game of Russian roulette. Since most of them were pirated there was a 50 percent chance of them not working at all. Some of the stuff is now lost to time. But some of them still remain! Like dolls and magazines and books. Maybe if I search good enough I might find those damn disks...

The moment I discovered the bizarre world of the internet, I started searching for everything related to Winx. Some of the very first videos I ever saw on YouTube were the Winx AMVs and those fan transformations that were popular back in the day. And don't get me started on the countless hours I spent playing Winx Club flash games of various levels of quality. And that one PC/PS2 game by Konami! I can't forget about it. I fucking hated this game's camera. Still do. I also discovered lets plays through this game. Even so I didn't know that term yet. Fun times.

And it also gave me my first 2d crush. Yeah.

Musa, the fairy of music

She's got a point, she's an icon, she's a legend and she is the moment.

This girl. She was my everything back in the day. I drew her constantly. Sometimes with myself. The only instant of self-shipping art in my life. I had this particular book about history of the music with Musa. And in the back of this book there were pages where you could take the notes. And I wrote my love confessions to her there. There were also love confessions to my classmate. Buuuut we don't talk about that. It's not about him. When we played as fairies with friends on the playground I always chose Musa. God forbid someone else tried to pick her. I was the Musa girl.

What was about her that I liked so much? I liked her design. I aspirated to dress like her. When she got long hair in season 3 I started to grow my hair just so I could be just like her. I succeeded in this at least. I liked her personality. I liked her tomboyishness. Well, in the early seasons. We don't talk about anything past season 3. Even though I'm really nostalgic towards season 4. There was also a "she's just like me" factor. To the young me who just started to learn play piano Musa was very important. She resonated with me. 

In a way she was my queer awakening. Even though I didn't realize that at the time. I'm sure she also influenced my taste in characters. If i took the time I could probably do a whole analysis about that. But I won't. Not now at least :)